i lay on my bed soaking my pillows with my tears,
i try to remember exactly what it is that i fear
is it the passing of time or the love that i lack?
is it the mistake that i've made or the fact that i can't bring the past back?
what is it that i'm afraid of?
why am i so scared?
is it the people i've hurt or the people that have hurt me?
am i afraid of everything that i can't seem to see?
is it the love of a friend or the loss of my family?
is it the possibility that my life can end in a tragedy?
what is it that i fear most?
what do my eyes say i'm scared of?
is it the sun that sets but won't seem to ris?
is it the trust of a person that i cannot begin to grasp?
is it the memories of my horrid past?
is it me?
can it possibly be that the thing i can't be?
the things that i try to understand?
the me that i try to be with when i'm feeling sad?
the person i'm expected to be? is that what i fear?....
i think the thing i fear most...is me.