¨Hope in reality is the worst of all evils because it prolongs the torments of man¨- Friedrich Nietzsche
Once a key holded on my hand
opening the door full of expectations
the key was inserted and with the door opened I entered
an infinite dark room full of passages and mystery
but once inside the door closed and the key went gone.
Skeptical of everything and everyone I began my journey
with which my life will struggle for the worst to come
each passage unique and with something to learn I found
values and blemish of myself and the others.
During the journey changes starting to occur to myself
at that moment I realize I wasn´t alone
the others were bystanders allowed to stay and see part of the play.
A play which I can divide in three scenes to analyze
a sequence of the consequences and the circumstances
different characters and in which I am the main player
being a villain and a hero on each passage
I didn´t consider, as any of us do, the future or
how important we are for the bystanders.
But how could the main player ever even consider it
so it is not on her nature to easily stablish trust or loyalty
values already built on the personality but not on this play
and there I was, entering the first scene, the learning path
built it up of the bystanders on the play and each one with
many masks and I had so little time to remember the details
I took what I could and continued with the next step.
Analyzing and accepting our new reality, was the first thing
we all, the bystanders and I with one common purpose did
to succeed and to be happy was always the prize to obtain.
As it is in real life I found good and evil bystanders
at this place I started to got scared and felt lost
strangely I felt too many little hands on my shoulders
this hands transformed on dragons by my side
those had a beautiful appearance I admired
trouble makers but with innocent hearts.
I loved their company but they weren´t there always
once on my own I started to track what and who I saw
and there were others who seemed like me on what I did
but they had the company of the goddess Athena
she is well known for the wisdom and useful arts
instead of that I received a band that covered my eyes.
Left behind some bystanders came and gave me a mask so I put it on
it didn´t matter how it worked but I could saw again the place
and they understood the rules and the suffering of that room.
There was peace on my soul when I was near them
and with it came the wisdom and the will
but something kept pushing me and vanish all the love
they disappeared and I was again lost and bandaged.
I heard noises and an audio with his voice
I hate his voice and his memoirs but it continued
I begged for it to stop, to be abolished
but the dark room wasn´t precisely a nice place
on the contrary the whole room was the monster playing
everything I lived was real but also was on my head.
The second scene is called the disgraceful epoch
the worst to come started to take form and name
the bystanders of Athena has struggles as I had
but a difference on the way was coming
I started to feel an excess of trust and that was a mistake
with too much struggles and regrets I got into a cycle.
So I used the help of the God Janus to decide
a lot of doors appeared but most of them were punished
all the effort became a defeat on others
my dragons and I received the punishment.
A stray started to take form and the director
the dark room as the controller had the voice
and tired of trying and losing I surrendered
so he finally had the control and transformed himself
Hades had now the power over my story, my mind.
I felt I had so many demons by my side I couldn´t breath
as it was a very long trip to make I started to suffer
with so many changes and passages the ground hurt my feet
and so it was stressful not to regain the control which I fought.
Ares was by my side most of the time and we both fought
and with some help of the bystanders we won some battles
but weren´t enough to regain control and peace and again
I was left behind at the mercy and desire of hades.
He became so powerful that started to affect everything
and so I started to doubt my goals, desires, will, affection
nothing and no one had a park and I lost interest
and at that moment I saw how the future burst
still didn´t matter and didn´t considered the consequences.
Our future affects others, and that was exactly what I ignored
I had no control and no strong affection on the bystanders
I commit huge mistakes and hurt them and I lost
a battle that was important and crucial to win.
So I gave way to the third scene that is called the abyss
and this is where the chaos is huge and the soul still regrets
the decisions, actions made on the past because now the price is too high
starting with a lost purpose of what I as the main character of this play
experienced and regret of myself for investing and loving seven years of education
teaching is a passion rather than a profession but hades took control over it
now if I gaze back I find a huge pain on my soul that is hard to ignore.
My ignorance of the reality has a huge punishment and I still question
I have to ward off and wait until I have my scars on body and soul recovered
I lost my friends and I have a chaos in me
this play has finished but I am still on the scenario
the decision is mine rather to make other play or to go along with Hades.
©Flaca