ANAM CARA...

I want to feel...No more.

I just want to feel alive

When the nightmares  

Scream in the back of my mind.

 I want to feel the wind on my face , the cold rain in my body, this body that

has become numb.

I want to feel...

To feel the pain 

that makes me feel alive

the soul has been dead

 for so long...

This crazy heart wants to feel no more... 

Blood dripping from this wound in the middle of my arm

Drop...drop...drop..

Slowly the life is leaving this body.... 

Drop..drop..drop...

Relaxing this mind 

is getting tired. 

 Losing the battle 

now wants to sleep..

 Drifting into the most relaxing dreams I have ever known ..

Embracing this warmth, this mind wants to follow this peaceful moment ...

The heart wants to stop fighting, to stop this beating and just relax...

They want to give up 

They want to follow this dream and sleep forever ...

With no more dreams in this soul...

Sleep into the oblivion

 and disappear from this rootten world ...

The soul wants to exist 

to feel no more...