Overwhelmed

Sometimes, I feel so broken

In the deepest places of my soul.

Sometimes, I feel overwhelmed by this silly pathetic life of mine.

I feel so tired, and sometimes I don't want to dream anymore,to feel, to be...

I feel like I'm trapped in a constant struggle that I create it my own .

Sometimes, I feel it isn't worth it

to keep feeling... to keep wanting...

Tears are staining  my cheeks..

and this lost mind of mine..

maybe I'm doing this wrong?

And what I really need

is to embrace this pain...

this loneliness, I feel in my soul

and be happy in this darkness

where I really truly belong...

be whom I used to be  

 this introverted lonely person

that used to care for no one at all..

Whom was in love with the darknes,who used to be ok with being alone

in this pathetic world of feeling

that isn't for me anymore...

I will embrace this dark, cold world.

This reality I made my own.. 

Where no one really matters and for it...

 I  was never felt like I was broken because I know nothing different.. 

Because I never knew what it was to feel loved.... now after I learned that this existed... I feel empty indeed. Somehow,

I never really felt it before when I was indeed all alone ..

I forever be that stupid person

the one that loves way too much 

the one that always gives way more than what I would ever receive in return..

But at least I'm happy because what little love I had in my cold, empty heart I gave it to you.. 

Without hoping you ever loved me in return....